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Name: pianistoflove
Gender: Female
Interests: SLEEPING. shopping. doing the usual things girls love doing.
Expertise: going crazy. SHOPPING.
Occupation: daughter. slacker. GIRLFRIEND
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
12/8/2006
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| Heartache, puffy eyes, ready-to-flow-tears, nostalgia..
21 months of happiness, sadness, fighting, make up, crying.. we're both tired from fighting everyday.. maybe it's the best arrangement.. at least for now i suppose.
thanks for never promising a 'forever'. somehow in one way or another, you already knew it'd never come.. | | |
| This morning, I went to work myself. Bro has been sending me to work for the past week and truth to be told, being able to go to work myself can be quite a luxury.
Why a luxury?
I left house earlier than usual today and so, when I reached Tiong Bahru, I had more than enough time to spare to stroll to the office. And so I did. I took the longer route and strolled to the office, enjoying the breeze that lifted my hair and basked in the warm morning sun.
As I bounced to the office, I wondered how it'd be like if the pace of life is slowed down. As vehicles zoomed past me, I wondered how it'd be like if Singapore isn't this advance...
I need a retreat. | | |
| I haven't blogged for more than a month; and many things happened of course.
I just celebrated my X birthday recently, so I'm gonna pen them down.. Just a routine (& possibly boring) entry, but still, I wanna write down every single thing that made me a happy girl this birthday! 
Starting off with as early as Jan 20, where sayang Syaza and I post and pre celebrated each others' birthday at Secret Recipe! Was an awesome mini celebration where we sang each other birthday songs over a slice of cake of our choice. Definitely enjoyed her company and I certainly wished time didn't have to pass so fast! I love love Syaza! <3
Jan 28, bestie Jon asked Pam and WeiTing out for dinner for a mini celebration at Ma Maison. Failed surprise, but it indeed made my day. (:
Jan 29, met up with OGIU for lunch and chillax before a reunion dinner later at night..
Jan 30, bought my iPhone 4, with mommy sponsoring 50% of it.
Jan 31, was supposed to meet Poh Ai for dinner but didn't in the end, and Pam coincidentally texted me if I wanted to join them for dinner and singing session. So headed over to meet the couple while waiting for the rest to reach. Eh, child abuse that night because the bunch was so late and I was starving! Thought it'd just be a normal dinner until Jon presented me with a cake (of course, failed surprise, again. :P) with X big candles! Reality hit me hard! I'm already THAT old. ): Sang and ended the night well (:
Janice and Mildred gave me an eyeliner from Shu Uemura! Thank you sweeties!
Feb 1, the actual day. Went to work as usual and headed back to Ngee Ann with Angela.. D came to pick me up after that and we headed over to Jack's Place at West Coast Rec Centre to have dinner. He then presented me with the first surprise - muffins that he baked! Under baked, but I polished it off anyway. :D
Walked around Clementi Central night market before going back to the car.. Sent me home, parked at my car park before he gave me my surprise #2: a Burberry wristlet! My jaws literally dropped!!
Angela put a little present on my table - a book titled, "What I wish I knew when I was eighteen". Very inspiring, thank you! <3
I don't have big fanciful parties, I don't have 5767438543983 celebrations with 94735367542378 people, but it's all the simple joy and pleasure that made my birthday a really, really joyous one. Thank you very, very much!  | | |
| YOU are a good friend to both S and I.
YOU are always in our minds.
YOU are always cared for by us.
YOU seem to care more about me, but I seem to care lesser for you.
That's 'cause I let YOU in my life, but YOU keep me OUT of YOUR life.
I'm always the last to know anything about YOU, if you ever let me know, that is.
YOU don't seem to give a damn about us.
Oh well.
I hope I don't have to say goodbye. | | |
| For women, there are 2 sensitive numbers. Age and weight. Hey, they kinda rhyme! I'm still not too concerned with my age. I'd proudly say I'm 2x soon, no doubt about that. But I guess the other number, my weight, is the ultra sensitive topic for me...
I don't know since when I started being obsessive with my weight and what I eat. Initially, it was probably just being health conscious when I kept the fried stuff out. It gradually became.. An obsession. I know there's something wrong with me. I know it. But I can't help it but to keep thinking whatever I eat is gonna make me so damn fat. I'm very mean, but I really dread being fat. I can't even stand myself being there (in year 1 when I was x6kg) once again. I don't wanna feel fat and inferior.
I exercise. I watch what I eat. I try to be active as much as possible. Are these fast becoming an obsession? I don't know, but for sure I know this will be my way of life.
But then again, I'm so glad that I don't resort to forcing myself to throw out whatever I've eaten or starve myself. I'm a foodie, I love to eat. So in one way or another, I'm just glad I'm nowhere near anorexic or bulimic.
HAHA, I won't have to worry about me being too skinny because I'm a pig! I eat tonnes of food and snack loads. I wanna feel good. And when do I feel good?
I feel best when I'm exercising. :D | | |
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