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Name: pianistoflove
Gender: Female
Interests: SLEEPING. shopping. doing the usual things girls love doing.
Expertise: going crazy. SHOPPING.
Occupation: daughter. slacker. GIRLFRIEND
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Website: visit my website
Member Since:
12/8/2006
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| This year's 1st Feb..
What should I say?
Never cried so much before.
As I scroll through my cell phone inbox to reply all the birthday wishes, ShiMin sent a text telling me she was reading my blog. && she told me, "don't blog about things which made you angry and bad things which happened. for they are not worth to be remembered. pen more happy stuff!"
Even though we are in different courses, having different cliques of friends, to know that someone who does care really warms my heart.
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Attended Wati's birthday chalet with OGIU on 30th Jan, where her JC cliques were there as well. Before heading to her chalet, I went to Irvin's place with Olivia and it was awesome! His place was like a little cottage! Olivia then dropped Irvin and I at Suntec where I met Bryan to head East together.
Saw a Lotus sports car at Downtown East carpark and I insisted it was a Lamborghini. To that, Bryan said he'd smack me if I were to say it's a Lambo again. Met Rachel and Sue, then headed off to the chalet. ShiMin came at 5ish and we chatted for a bit before I left.
Headed to Dan's place, studied a little before falling asleep in his room and he, Eunice's room. An awesome morning spent with him, and when we went back to his place in the afternoon and he presented a surprise for me! Silly boy did the thing he dreaded the most - shopping! For my present some more! I love him loads (: Sent the present for alteration on the same day too.
Well, Monday. Probably woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Family didn't really seem to care.. It's been like that anyway so it was normal. School sucked. The only redeeming factor was that Qi'En and ShuYu bought me a slice of cake and told me every would be fine in the end. Went home alone on 154 after that. Even though I really wanted Dan to be with me, I couldn't be selfish. He had a paper on the next day. I plugged in my photo music and the more I listened, the more I cried on the bus.
When I reached home, sis's bf called to ask if I were going out. With no plans for the evening, I replied I was going to collect Dan's present for me. Walked to Jurong Point and back; took me one hour. When I got home I was presented with a mango cake my sis's bf bought for me. To that, I realized bro forgot my birthday and how old I am, and dad didn't realize my birthday is on the 1st, not 2nd.
Overall, the good things that happened kinda neutralized the bad things. The wishes on my Facebook wall, the SMSes (some even from people whom I haven't spoken to for donkey years), the calls, the personal wishes all made my day!
Alsoooo, a big THANK YOU to SYAZAAAA for the top! it's really superbly pretty! I'll wear it when I exercise in future! (:
I love the girls despite all good and bad. Qi'En, ShuYu, Syaza. Thanks.
I love my boyfriend, in his worst and best times. Quoted from LGMH LGMH
"I was diagnosed with a severe mental disease about a year ago. My boyfriend has put up with all of my paranoia, anger and odd things that I do. When i told him he should leave me because it wasn't fair to him, he said, "If i can't take you at your worst then i don't deserve you at your best.""
Thank you for the birthday, despite all the downs. (: | | |
| Requests for birthday wishlist have been coming in since last week, and there's just some requests.
1. NO FOOD
2. NO SOFT TOY (my bed is getting really squeezy, thus I've got not much space to sleep)
3. This sounds really bad, but well, better to write it. I don't like 925 silver jewelery. I don't like Taka either.
I'm soooooo sad that Qi'En's going away in 4 weeks' time, for 6 whole months!
As per my 'tradition', I'm feeling really down as the 1x years of my life start flashing back.. The urge to cry comes every time I'm alone, and the worst things are when I get all paranoid and possessive. No good. Depression not? ):
Acer laptop sucks. Aspire 3935's media board sucks. Got it replaced not long ago and now, problems are coming back. Irritating ttm.
B,iMu. | | |
| Qi'En told me my blog is pretty melancholic.
Er, actually quite true lah. Since i-don't-know-when, all I did was to record the sad or angry moments in this blog.. The happy moments just slipped away quietly without me realizing it.
I used to blog a lot, about every single nitty gritty detail in my blog.. But ever since AJH entered my life and left, I realized some things don't have to be spelt out clearly here. As long as I know it, that'll suffice.
But haiyah, that slowly evolved to not blogging much, then to just sad or angry stuff. Bad thing is, it's as though my life is always in sadness or anger. However, no, that's not the case. I do have people who bring laughter to me.. And am truly thankful for their appearances in my life; however short it may be.
This semester, I gained some friends, I lost some friends.
I lost friends who left me all of a sudden. But, God is fair. He took some away, but He also made sure He gave me other friends to surround me.
This semester sees 3 significant girls who have entered my life. In random order, Shu Yu, Qi'En, Syaza.
I'm gonna cherish this friendship that I have with them even more now. And should they leave my life one day, at least I know I had really, really did what I can to appreciate these girls. Girls, if you ever get to read this, I just want to say:
Thank you for making a difference in my life. | | |
| I don't really wanna start studying.
As cliche as it may sound, time flies. I can't deny that.. Turning the last year where I can officially call myself a teenager and with that, I'll sadly, leave the league of being a teen. Blah.
Anyhow, I just wanna pen this down so that this memory will stay forever.
In the past, none of any of the guys I'd dated would give a shit to my menstrual cramps whenever I had them. The only consolation(s) I used to get were, "tahan a bit okay, it'll be over soon.." orrrrr patronizing replies, "is it really that pain...?" Like total bullshit. I won't be screaming and rolling over if it doesn't hurt.
Sooooo, my point is, this time round, I'm glad to have someone who genuinely cares about me. Despite me being grumpy and fussy etc., he remained patient; took in all my rubbish; carried my bag; waited patiently outside the toilet when I was inside for the longest time ever and talked to me, making sure I hadn't fainted; got me warm water to calm the pains in my tummy; putting his ever warm and assuring arms around me to make sure I won't fly when the taxi e-braked; and even wanting to carry me up the stairs despite the floor being wet and slippery and me being super heavy.
I don't know how many lucky stars I have to get a wonderful guy like this. Not minding every flaw of mine and even willing to accept them, constantly giving me the assurances that I need and most importantly, loving me with an ever big heart.
All the small things grow his position in my heart, and seriously, I too, hope for the same thing that the small things will grow my position in his heart too.
Dan, don't be angry with me. I know I ought to be studying now but I'm blogging instead, but I just don't wanna let the memories slip by my fingers.
I loveeee you.  | | |
| It's a bit late, but I reckon doing this now is better than never doing it.
In 2010, my priorities are
1. Family
2. Studies and Daniel
3. Friends
Ask me why friends are last, and that's because once bitten twice shy.
I loved that girl so much, but when she turned her back on me, she was ruthless. Left me utterly helpless without any explanations or the not.. Nonetheless, if she's willing to, I'm still willing to mend this friendship.
But then again, till now, true friends and far and few between. I've gotten pretty used to it, and truly cherish those who are really willing to accept me for who and what I am. I can count the number of true and steady friends with my fingers and toes combined.
Family. Despite the run-ins with my family, they're still the ones who will give me agape love no matter what. However, sometimes, they ain't the most supportive of all. And it's utterly disheartening at times.
Studies. Been slacking way too much since semester 3. It's already semester 4, and I'd better buck up, like really buck up. Diploma grads don't get paid much, do they? Anyhow, I also gotta catch up with Daniel.. Would love him to be proud of me too.
Daniel. Well, knew him unexpectedly and unexpectedly let him into my life too.. Never thought someone would really appreciate me this much. Thank God for him.
In 2009, I wasn't the best person to start with, and wasn't the best person to end with. I started a-oh-kay in 2010, and hopefully, all will end well by 2010. | | |
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